Reflecting on a decision I made a year ago today, I can say I truly learned a lot from this experience. I didn't consult God on my decision because I assumed he was alright with it since it was birth from a church experience. In reality, with grief consuming me, longing to fill a void and a deep rooted seed of pride and jealousy blinded me and I let go of God's hand once again. Now that doesn't mean me relationship with God stopped but some intimacy was lost.
While on this path I did things different to ensure it's success. This was what I thought I wanted so how could it fail. The Holy Spirit start removing the blinders and red flags were seen clearly. Even some character flaws withing myself slapped me in the face. The moment I engaged back into that intimate relationship with Abba, he directed me back on his path and quickly closed the door.
From this experience I gained wisdom. Me relationship with God grew deeper and I surrendered my all to him, yes even the small things. I quickly consult him and truly see the important of being interdependent. From this experience I made a vow to God that was truly from the heart. My goal in life changed to pleasing him. I want everyone to see Jesus when you encounter me. With that being said I would like to apologize to anyone who may have been hurt or affected in a negative way by me not walking in my purpose. I am thankful for God's grace and mercy.
Freedom
