As time progressed I started to build a deeper relationship with God. While doing so God showed me that I didn’t need anything but him to make me whole. That is when the statement, “I can’t wait to get married”, turned into a question. I started questioning was I ready to be somebody’s wife. I started shifting my focus from men to being the woman that would please God rather in a relationship or not.
A new list was prepared geared towards my character and my
flaws. I made a true vow of celibacy to
God (in the past the vow was full of pride and I failed every time). After making this decision with the right
motive in mind God started preparing me for my future; messages on being the
woman he wanted me to be. I had to work
on my self-esteem. Finally I can look in
the mirror and say I am beautiful.
My prayers changed from bring me a husband to make me into a
great wife if it is his will. A
wife that any man would love to have by their side.
I prayed that people would see God’s character in me. I want to be use by God. I want everybody I come in contact with to feel
his love.
The time I took out from the dating scene has allowed God to
work on me. I feel I am finally ready to
date. It’s amazing to see God guarding
my heart. For so long I was to blinded
with pride. I kept putting my
hands all over it and causing myself pain.
Now that I have bestowed my Trust in him he has stopped the games at the
door. For a while I felt invisible
because men weren’t even approaching me.
I now know it was healing process I had to go through. I’m making sure I am consulting God on every step of this
journey. I am not perfect but striving
to hear well done my daughter.
I am writing this to encourage my sisters and brothers that
long for things to complete thing. The only
thing that will make you whole is your relationship with God. Once you build this relationship your outlook
on life will be so different. You will
be content, full of joy and peace no matter what. Why not surrender your all today.
