Why Do You Attend Church

I have been thinking a lot lately why people actually go to church. I see tons of people on Sunday morning heading to there choosen place of worship and I wondered why? Is it to get a word and encouragement for the upcoming week? Is it to see their favorite preacher? Are they attending to see friends or is it to serve God in every area of their lives?

Now what brought this thought on is because I have encountered so many people that leave there church home for some interesting reasons. Now, can you call a place your home and leave over simple things. If your toilet clog up at home you don't just pack up and leave. No you stick it out and fix the problem or call on the experts to fix it on your behalf. So why not allow God to give you patience to deal with church issues. Why not love the church body right where they are, just as Jesus did. Do you remember the fruit of the spirit, long suffering? No wonder people get a divorce quickly they don't know how to stick around over simple things, how can they maintain a marriage, but thats a topic for another day.

Here are some of the reasons I have heard personally why people left their church. “Well the church wanted to much of my time and I am not getting anything in return.” “The church is always asking me for money.” “He hurt my feelings and he is suppose to be a christian.” “I don't want to be around my ex-mate/friend.” Last but not least, “the pastor, first lady or other leaders in the church weren't there personally for me when I needed them and I give my money and time to the church.”

Now for the reasons I have received I have prayed for the individuals involved cause I know how it feels to go through each encounter but God has allowed me to see things differently and want me to share with you. You see, I don't go to church expecting perfection from people who are still a work in progress. This also includes the leaders of the house. The leaders are sheep, just as well as we are, following one shepherd (Jesus). I go to church for God, to build a deeper relationship with him, and corporate worship with my sisters and brothers. God allowed us the opportunity to base our walk on a foundation that is rooted in him rather than people in a church building (also remember the church is in you please). So stop judging your fellow christians please. Instead pray that God move in you and show you your flaws so you can work on the person in the mirror and love everyone in the body of Christ, no matter where they are in their walk. Then pray for your sisters and brothers that may have hurt your feelings, that God will get bigger in them.

Now this is not to judge anyone that have left the church for reasons above. I have expereinced the same things and more. I mean pain from people in church that made me cry and I wanted to flee. But God never gave me instructions to leave my church home instead he increase my duties to help me manifest the fruits of the spirit  (love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance - Galatians 5:22-23) which Jesus instilled in me that day he died on the cross. When it all bowls down to it, it hurts me to see people leave and go from one church to the next because I know that they are not allowing God to teach them some important life lessons. The are running from a great lesson of enduring the pain. They are running from the true relationship with God, that can help them with every encounter they may have at church. So ask yourself right now, what is my reason for going to church and meditate on it.

Praying for you always

Love Freedom

Are You Affecting Lives

So lately I have been thinking am I making a change in this world for God. I mean is my life affecting others in a positive way and making God proud at the same time. You see there was a time when I thought I couldn't be a major affect in this world without a lot of money. Then God showed me that a penny can change a life. Then I thought I didn't have enough knowledge of the bible to change the world. I mean I know people that can quote the whole bible but God showed me he can use a rock or a donkey to get the job done. I thought to myself I didn't speak with flare so who would want to listen to me. But he showed me that I have the holy spirit and he can control every word that come out of my mouth. I even questioned my writing skills because I make grammar errors but God put a burning urge in my to write and every time I do he feeds me the words to help somebody.

So I came to the conclusion that I was finding flaws in myself and God showed me that I was made in his image and I can do all things through Christ. So I decided to do everything I can to help change this world. Whatever he need me to do I will do. I stopped looking at things I do for God as simple and not enough and realized that the simple things can change a life and even the world.

Let me give you a few examples. I remember one summer, for a few days, I was a camp counselor. I had anywhere from 6-10 girls. We had conversation, laughed, prayed and talked about life. I shared with the young ladies personal experiences. I had to leave early to go back to work but enjoyed every minute of it. The following year I couldn't go to camp but went to the departure spot for the campers to drop my niece off, who had taken my spot as a counselor. While standing outside I heard out of the blue, “Mom that's her, thats Crystal.” I turned around and the girl was one of my campers from the previous year but I didn't remember her name. She had tears in her eyes and hugged me so tight. Her mom came to me and said thank you for helping my daughter last year and changing her life. I was speechless because I didn't even remember what I did. I didn't do anything spectacular. Everything I did was simple but this young lady thought it was major.

God allowed me to see another example of simple things changing lives through my dad. The other day my mom told the UPS delivery guy that my dad had pasted away, since they use to have conversation all the time. The man started crying in disbelief. He said my dad was always so nice to him. He shared with my mom that my dad told him that if he ever needed safety or got into any trouble to know he could always knock on our door. Now he stated that this wasn't the first time somebody told him that but my dad was truly sincere and he could feel it. He even said he went back to his church and told the congregation about my dad and how nice of a man he was.

Now these two simple examples are God's way of showing us that it doesn't take much to change a life or the world. All it takes is a willing heart and you walking in the spirit. Look, you never know who is watching you. Your actions throughout the day could change somebody life. So give somebody a smile, stop and speak to the delivery guy, give that .50 in the cup holder to the man on the corner or simple give a hug and watch God move in the simplest things. I will end with one of my favorite quotes, “How many people are better of because you live?” Think about it and get to moving.

Love

Freedom

Do You Ask

So this week God has been dealing with me about asking him for things.  I had become so independent that it was hard for me to ask people for anything.  It had gotten so bad that I will go without rather than ask for help.   Growing up in a one income home taught me not to be wasteful, to appreciate what you have, and work hard.  But what it also taught me that I didn't want to be a burden on anyone and I would provide for myself.  You see I grew up in a General Motors home.  This means we have experienced layoffs and plant shut downs.  My dad was a hustler, he made a way for us to not go without, but that didn't mean I didn't notice the struggles. 

So as soon as I got old enough to work I did.  At the age of 14 I had my first job and haven't stopped since.  I also kept my grades up in school so my parent wouldn't have to pay for college.  The first school that offered me a scholarship I took (thanks Wayne State University).  I decided not to apply know where else because I didn't want my parents to pay application fees.  I didn't want to go out of state because I didn't want my parents to have to send me money for things.  So as you can see at a young age I became independent. 

Well today God is working on me to depend on him completely.  I went through a stage in my life were I lost all material things I owned and was in debt.  Instead of worrying I casted my cares on him and didn't stress cause I knew God had a plan for me.  I no longer stressed about things.  Then God showed me I might have passed that challenge but I still didn't ask him for anything.  So he had me sit and think about who I asked for things.  I realized that I had a hard time to ask even the very intimate people in my life for anything.  If I asked you for something it meant I was really in need.  He even took me back to times I had chances to ask my dad for things and I would go to my mom instead (even that was difficult).  The crazy thing was she would always turn around and say ask your dad.  In hinds sight God was preparing me then for this lesson.  He showed me that I have not learned how to receive. 

During this past week so many people were so giving to me and my family in our time of lost.  Then he made me ask for something as simple as deserts for my dad’s repast.  Man was that a challenge to type a message to people I loved and ask for simple support.  Then I turned on Joyce Meyer and she was discussing Hindrance in Prayer.  The number 1 hindrance was asking.  Man just blew me away.  Now the first thought was that God wanted me to know that he is my provider.  He told me to ask him for something from him multiple times a day.  God want me to get comfortable asking cause he know I had thoughts that he have more important things to worry about my small problems.  But he let me know I am his child and have inherited all he has. 

Then he revealed to me that the only way I could ask him for anything is to seek him and commune with him more.  Now don't get me wrong, I wake up and thank God for everything that come to mind.  I read scripture and not afraid to worship God at all times.  But he wants me to be in the middle of my work day, commune with him and ask.  He want while I am pumping gas to commune with him and ask.  He wants me to seek him more, stay focused on him all the times and get comfortable asking.  So I challenge you to search the bible and just see how many times God has said ask.  Then search yourself to see do you ask.

Peace In Death

As you may or may not know my dad went to be with God on January 5^th. This is the first time I have experienced death so close and fully understood everything. When the doctors told us he wouldn't make it but a day or so I prayed for God's will to be done. So when he took his last breath I trusted fully that God wanted him home with him. Now I would be lying if I didn't tell you that my emotions were trying to control me but I knew God know exactly what he is doing. So I shed tears and then I started worshiping right in the hospital. I was crying with a smile because I knew my daddy was cracking jokes with Jesus. I realized that my dad didn't have to deal with chemotherapy anymore. He didn't have to walk with a cane. He was no longer in pain and truly free.

Now I know everyone mourns differently but I am here to tell you you can experience peace in death. If you allow God to move in your heart. If you call on him in your time of despair and be honest by telling him you need him, peace will consume you. Please notice I didn't say he will give you peace. You already have it through the holy ghost the question is are you conscious of it.

I remember the first time I experienced the peace that passed all understanding. I had being praying for God to reveal truth concerning a relationship. Well lets just say he slapped me in the face with the truth and reminded me that I already knew what was going on all along. Well my anger was so intense, lets just say I understood how crimes of passion happen, but God. Well just when the anger was about to explode he whispered in my ear you got what you prayed for and peace consumed me. I mean the anger disappeared just like that. I could actually smile.

Well this is the same peace I experienced in the hospital. This is the same peace you can experience today. Even when I have my moments through out the day where I cry it doesn't take away my peace. I just remember the great daddy I had and realize I am so blessed. I know my daddy is still with me and he is forever locked in my heart. So today I say whatever you are going through, rather you lost someone, rather you are stressed about a relationship, a job, children, whatever the circumstance call on God right now and watch his peace consume you.

Love you guys and may you experience peace everyday

Freedom

RIP: Daddy

Experience God Right Now

So over the Christmas vacation my goal was to stay in God's presence at all times. Not that God ever leaves us but we become unconscious of him by focusing on the day. My goal was to realize no matter was going on that I can constantly exist with the holy spirit and realize that I am one with everyone. Doing this have changed my life even more. I feel good, so at peace, and receiving favor everywhere I go. For example my experience at the airport was awesome. There were no lines, security opened up a lane so I wouldn't have to wait and I met great people that offered good conversation, food and love. I seen how easy it is to really love everyone. It truly is in his strength and not our own. When you are walking with God, I mean really making him your focus of every thought you have no problems. The fruits of the spirit (love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control) comes with ease.

One thing I did realize was how many people complained and spoke things into there lives. Now I can understand if you don't have the holy spirit or should I say unconscious of him I expect you to be stuck in the matrix of the mind. But the people that I was hearing complain were Christians. The crazy thing was they were making things that weren't problems into problems. I understood this totally cause I user to do the same thing. I use to complain about everything. I complained about money, even though God always made a way. I complained about my car not running right even though God had blessed me with a car. I complained about the job and the people at the job. I can go on and on as you can see.

Speak negative things into my life was natural. I was so oblivious to the power of my tongue. I allowed myself and other to abuse me verbally. I would say negative things about myself and absorb everything everyone else said about me. My thoughts were flowing 100 miles per hours but they were never uplifting thoughts. No wonder low self-esteem was my name. But God......

I am so grateful I started praying for a deeper relationship with God. I asked him to open my eyes and ears so I can truly be with him all the time. With this request he revealed some lessons to me. He showed me my thoughts first, teaching me how important it is to watch my thoughts. God showed me what I was giving thought to was what was controlling me and taking over my heart. Isaiah 26:3 states,

3 You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You.

Romans 1:28-31 states,

28 And even as they refused to have God in their knowledge, God gave them up unto a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not fitting;

29 being filled with all unrighteousness, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, malignity; whisperers,

30 backbiters, hateful to God, insolent, haughty, boastful, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents,

31 without understanding, covenant-breakers, without natural affection, unmerciful

Review your thoughts at this very moment. What are you focusing on? Our those thought adding joy to your life or stealing the very life out of your body?

The second lesson he revealed was to listen to the words I was speaking. I remember before I was blessed with financial literacy I use to always say I was broke or I didn't have enough money. I can also remember joking with friend about being poor. Please pay close attention to your words. My words had me living from paycheck to paycheck. I only had enough just to pay bills and get through to the next check came. I felt terrible when I did a budget. On top of my negative words my thought were always saying it will be this way again when the next check come and sure enough it was. Then I got tired of being tired and I prayed to God for a change and he introduced me to a world of living debt free and taught me Proverbs 18:21,

21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.

What words are you just letting flow out of your mouth? What are you complaining about? I mean really when you look at your situation do you really have problems? Are you always talking about illness, not having enough, and negative word just being spoken freely?

The third lesson I have learned was was I really trusting God and have faith in him and his promise. So many people quote scriptures everyday but don't live by the words. I mean how many of you have scripture on your walls, as a screen saver, and recite them as if the were written on the back of your hand but when it comes to applying them to your life you seem to have amnesia. By your actions I am assuming you tell yourself it was just a saying that Jesus said back in his day but it don't apply now. Lets take Luke 17:6.

He replied, "If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you.

How many of you are believing, without a doubt, that you can have a life without problems. I mean a life that is so full of power that you laugh whenever a negative thought try to creep your way. What about this one, 2 Corinthians 5:7

7 For we walk by faith, not by sight.

This is a famous scripture in the church. I hear people shout this one to the mountain top but when you are home or at work you have no faith in God being a provider while you are looking at that bill in your hand or the boss getting on your nerves cause he trying to overwork you for less pay. Then you come back to church on Sunday praying/complaining (there is no difference now a days) on how things are not working out for you.

God is trying to get you to see that it is already done. Christ got up with all power. He left you the holy spirit (the power inside of you) so you have already overcome every obstacle. Here are 4 steps that can assist you to stop complaining and help you to really start focusing on God. Step 1: ask God for what you want. You want an abundant life ask for it. James 4:2 states,

2 You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God.

Step 2: believe without a doubt (at the end of the post I have attached a picture of a mustard seed just to remind you how much faith God is asking you for). Step 3: is to receive. I am not just saying have your hand out but receive in your heart. Feel it deep inside and feel good no matter what. Finally Step 4: is gratitude. Be grateful for what you have right now. This actually should be step one. When you can think of something to be grateful for it makes you feel good automatically. You can't be grateful and complaining at the same time. So I ask you to stop complaining and start living. Experience God right now.

Taking Freedom For Granted

My fellow American sisters and brothers that love Christ, please don't take your freedom for granted. I had a war with the flesh yesterday morning about staying in the bed or getting up to go to church. I mean I had to talk to myself and tell the flesh to get behind me and realize that it was a privilege to serve him and just to be in God's house once again. Which got me thinking about the brothers and sisters around the world that wish they could worship freely.

There are brothers and sisters in Afghanistan that are getting stoned if they say Jesus. The are Christians in North Korea that have been thrown in prison camps, tortured and even killed for professing their love for Jesus. There are so many places around the globe where our sisters and brothers are in fear or there lives because they are Christians. We here in America are to afraid to share our faith with our neighbors, co workers or total strangers in fear of what they might say, think or even losing our jobs.

Its time that we stand up and be bold for Christ. You have the FREEDOM to profess what Jesus has done for you. What are you doing today to take advantage of your freedom.? Are you changing the world for him? Can someone see your light? Luke 8:16 states,

16 “No one lights a lamp and hides it in a clay jar or puts it under a bed. Instead, they put it on a stand, so that those who come in can see the light.

Are you hiding in a corner of your job reading the bible and keeping everything you are learning to yourself? Are you hiding in your house worshiping God in secret and having meeting with only Christians because you are afraid of the world? Are you going to church every Sunday shouting at every word the Pastor say but the rest of the week no one knows you love Christ?

There are different ways to expressing your faith. If you see a woman at the gas station with a car full of kids why not pay her tab. If she ask you why say because of Jesus. Tell a total stranger that God loves them and you do to. Spark a conversation with a neighbor you don't know. Share what Jesus has done to the man at the shoe store. Basically give God's love freely to others without expecting anything in return. You have the FREEDOM to do so without someone threatening your life. Don't take your freedom for granted.

P.S.

I ask that you stand in agreement with me and thank God right now in providing the freedom to be Christian to our fellow sisters and brothers around the globe. Christ died so we have the victory and I pray that the freedom we have here is manifested all over the world. In Jesus name Amen.

Ok guys came across a poem I wrote back in the day but it goes with today's post so enjoy.

Envy

Written By: Freedom

9/27/07

Envy engulf me

When I see you two

True love

The perfect mate

He

Man of God

His spirit

Glow

Handsome brightness

Treats her right

She on a petal stool

My thoughts say

I want that

God bless me

Someone of his image

The flip side:

Envy engulf me

When I see her

Single and free

The perfect life

She

Woman of God

Free Spirit

Shining

Beautiful Spark

Nothing holding her back

No Stress

My dreams say

I want that

God strengthen me

To stay marry

Keep Your Eye On The Prize, God

First let me say Thank you Lord for allowing me to be used by you one more day. I ask that you increase in me right now as I decrease. I pray that with every word that I type that you will get all the glory and praise. I pray that these words encourage the person that needed it and that they remember that you are the key to any problem they may have. In Jesus name AMEN.

So the other day I was sitting in Panera Bread people watching and accomplishing some goals I had set for the week. While there God showed me how I should be grateful for being able to do this simple task.  He showed me how people always want what they don't have rather just enjoy the right now and what they do have.

I am guilty of this very thing. For so long I wanted to be married with kids.  Longed to have money to burn.  I wanted a job that allowed me to travel. Wasn't satisfied with my body so tried to do everything to gain weight. Wished I had her flawless skin, his eye color and her hair. I even wished that I would have other people walk with God, just crazy

The issue is so many of us let society dictate what we don't have (status, money, education, even down to the perfect dog) as a problem. They tell you you are not your best and lacking things.  You are flawed by their definition.  My question is who are these people?  No one can seem to answer that question.  We are allowing people that don't know us at all and I will even say don't know God tell us what is right for us.  Can you say conforming to this world.  God also showed me another problem. If you look at the previous paragraph you can see the common theme, I.  I was so consumed with me that I didn't appreciate what God and all his provisions.

When I started taking my eyes off me and focused on God he showed me I had everything I ever needed.  He has me right where I am suppose to be.  I long for nothing but more of him.  I am grateful that I have the freedom to go when I want and where I want without having to worry about anyone.  Even with problems with my body I appreciate just being able to move freely.  I am grateful just being alive, this week one of my friends didn't wake up from her sleep.  Then God sent me to Psalm 139:13 – 14,

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

That means I am made just the way God planned.  He knew me before I knew myself.  He is my creator and how dare I tell him that something he made is flawed.  Thank you Lord for the revelation.

So I challenge you to take the time right now to think of 10 things you are grateful for.  If you are thinking you don't have that many good things let me help you out.  Can you read this message right now?  Did you just take another breath?  You in the hospital bed did somebody just flat line down the hall.  You without a job did you just put food in your mouth?  You, the single parent, did you just hug your child, and there is a woman next door that can't have kids?  You get where I am going with this.  Instead of complaining about your lack, how about you focus on God and realize that he supplied all you needs.  Realize that everything that God created is good.  Hey God said so himself.  If you don't believe me just check out Genesis.  So wipe you tears away, get rid of your woe is me, take this very moment and Thank God for where you are in life.  Also remember stay focus on God and watch unspeakable joy consume you.

Love You

Freedom

Watch What You Ask For

I get so ecstatic when I see God move in ways I never thought. They say watch what you ask for cause you just might get it. Well two days ago I was having discussion with a friend on how I wanted to get rid of the anger I was harboring. How I just want to be over the pain that happen in my life. Well God heard every word and got to work. The next day while listening to Joyce Meyers she had a two part sermon called I Think I Am Right, But I Could Be Wrong. The topic was forgiveness and letting go of anger. Not that I haven’t heard messages about forgiveness before but this message was right on time. After listening I reached out to my praying sisters and asked them to stand in agreement with me that I could forgive the current situation and let go of the pain. You see the more you acknowledge the presence of God the more you will start to long to be like him in every way. How could I say I love Christ and still be so mad? So I was determined to let it go. Well as soon as I made that decision God put me to the test. One person that I felt had hurt me became a topic of conversation. I had to defend this person. I had to show someone else the good in them. I had to show love in the midst of pain.

The next thing that happened was funny to me. I went to a kickboxing class to get my workout on. While there my friend was stating this class was a great stress reliever and can release pain with every punch. So while I was punching the bag I tried to picture a person that I was not forgiving but realized that the love was too deep and I couldn’t even function when I tried. God convicted me with every punch. God will move immediately if you just trust and let him.

The next thing God did was allow a person that I felt hurt me called me to have a conversation. Now I could have just watched the phone and allow negativity to take over but instead I laughed cause I know God was challenging me to better. He wanted me show the loving side that I have telling you guys about lately. So I picked up the phone with a smile on my face. Held a conversation that I haven’t had in while and felt good afterwards. When I think about it I barely can remember why I was so offended by the person in the first place. Part of the issue that I was having with the person had so much to do with me. Anytime you get offended more than likely it’s something inside of you that need to fixed. But by God’s grace, mercy, patience and love he will work out every issue.

So know when you say you want something from God be prepared to be moved and tested in that very area. For example if you say you want the fruit of spirit (Galatians 5:22-23, ²² But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, ²³ gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. ) to manifest in your life know that will become you area to work on. Know you have to go through some challenges to say you are longsuffering. Know that having love means giving it and not being selfish. So remember watch what you ask for.

Love Freedom

How Soon Do We Forget

So the scripture that has been flowing through my heart since yesterday is Matthew 7:1-5,

1 “Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3 “Why do you look at that speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4 How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.

So yesterday I was watching The Lexi Show on the Word Network. The show's title was Vision Church of Atlanta. Now the show features a Bishop who is a homosexual and married to a man. I started reading comments from other people about the show and so many “christians” were saying these people were going to hell. It was an abomination to God and on and on.

While watching the show I had to question myself about how I felt about the sin that was present in the church but I definitely seen God moving in the midst. Well he reminded me that in the midst of my sin he loved and used me. I am in no way justifying sin but I know from personal experience the people you share a church home with are the ones that will hurt you the most. In the midst of a struggle you feel you have no one to talk to or no one would understand your struggles. But God will come in and mold and shape you. Sometimes this process will take a flash sometimes it takes years but only God can show you your faults and love you through it.

What was disappointing was the fact that so many “christians” forgot where they have been. They forgot when they were struggling with fornication, lying, adultery, pride, anger and on and on. Half the people that were judging the people of Vision Church are still going through it but since there sins are not one of the big 3 (adultery, fornication, homosexuality) then they can sweep there mess under the rug. Well let me be real with you. I have struggled with two out of the three big sins. In the midst of my mess God loved on me. God allowed me to write and encourage others. God allowed me to pray. But God also allowed me not to stay in that mess. He was dealing with me every chance he could get. Everywhere I went there was a word that came from others or out of my own mouth that would convict me and show me how I was out of order. But God loved me to correction. He bought some strong women and men of God in my life that walked with me through my struggles and loved me until I got things in order. I know there were days I made comments that was just out of this world and showed how crazy I was but my friends encouraged, gave word of correction and prayed for me. I was lost and saved like so many “christians” but that didn't change the fact that he died for me.

I just want to warn you before you start judging and sending people to hell someone who is struggling could be watching you and hoping they could come to you with their issues and get some love and guidance. There were people that didn't even know I was watching inspired me to be better. I would be lying to you if I told you that I am not still in the fire. I have days were I struggle, I cry, I have pain, I have crazy thoughts but in the midst of that I remember the God that is on my side. The one that is loving me to perfection. The God that gave me peace and wiped my tears in the midnight hour. The one whose grace and mercy is new everyday. I am so grateful to have him in my life.

If you are in the midst of your mess, I just want to let you know that I am praying for you right now that you get a deeper relationship with him and let him open your eyes fully. I pray that he sends you someone that will love you through the process and not someone who will send you to hell with gasoline draws on. I pray that you don't allow people that have hurt you make you run away from the Eternal God who loves you. I pray that you trust in him only and let his spirit work in you and soon sin will not be an issue. Transformation is possible but I dare to say that as long as you stay in his presence transformation is automatic. Just watch and see him work.

To the “christians” that dare to judge or dare to forget your plank in your eye it time out for the foolishness. You are running away great people from God's body. You are causing people to stop trusting and stop loving themselves and others. Please remember before your transformation where you were. I know half of you may have never been through anything and you have been saved and perfect all your life. If that is so great for you. But to the people of God, like me, who knows the struggles and don't think cause I know a few scriptures, sing on the praise team, or even stand on alter and preach, we have the right to forgot where God has brought us from. We need to remember the love he showed us so you can show others. 2 Corinthians 1:3-5

3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 5 For just as we share abundantly in t he sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.